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Hello again LOL. 
Yess. I'm back from a five minute stalk on my friend online. 
Not to mention the 3 second snoop on my dad's phone. >< It was ringing so .. I went to look at the incoming ...whatsapp message thingy. 
Thank god iPhones are 'idiot phones' . Otherwise, snooping can get a lil' difficult. =P 
So. Like I've said/thought before. Stalking is a great way of .. discovering more about people and realising that they're just putting on a brave front etc. 
To be mean, maybe one can say they're being fake to cover up their insecurities. YES I KNOW. I do that too. Welcome my fake friends. LOL. I'm joking. Joking! Really. 
And, well. Here are my findings today! 
Friend S. Man if she sees this, it's so DAMN obvious. Oh well. I'mma take a risk. 
She's feeling insecure again. I was looking for a 'comment' thingy to .. well comment on that post and cheer her up but I couldn't find any. =/
Apparently she likes someone and...well. Same old storyline being played over and over in everyone's life. Afraid that that someone would like someone better. Another prettier, smarter, more attractive person. Thin, too. 
Isn't it funny? Ironic, maybe? How she  fears that she isn't good enough, that there's someone out there better than her when she herself is that someone I feel is better than me. 
YES. 
I share her exact same fears. Only I know who the 'someone better' is. Her and the other gal friend. 
Come on! They are SO popular. SO pretty/cute. Everyone, everyone loves and cares for them. Friendly with them. ( Yeah its my fault on that last one) 
But still. 
Makes me jealous much ><. 
She's afraid of being inferior; when she is the one that makes me feel inferior! 
I guess Life is just having fun screwing around with our confidence. One after another. Next thing I know, the uber pretty, cute and popular girl in school is worrying about being ugly and not well-liked. 
That'd be really .... dumb. 
WAIT. Completely sidetracked. 
I was talking about her. 
Geez if only writing in my diary were as easy as typing. 
Ahem. Anyway.
According to her, she's been bottling up everything and 'sucking up and moving on'. 
How strangely familiar. Damnit friend, my bad. Take my advice and don't listen to me. 
Yeah I was the one who mentioned 'sucking up and moving on'. 
I feel responsible for it. I'm sorry my friend ><. My advice sucks, yeah. 
Bottling up messed up feelings is never good. Oh ho trust me, I know. 
On the other hand, since my .. feeling-tolerance level is not so high, bottling lesser than what they can makes me want to break down. 
Yeah just call me Miss Weak. 
No, don't. It's for me, not you. 
LOL. 
The good thing is.. she's gonna take responsibility for her life etc. I guess we all have our own different ways of relieving stress and dealing with the shit Life throws at us huh. 
Just another reminder to appreciate my life no matter how crappy I think it is, because there is always someone out there who feels the same for other reasons or just have a worse life. 
Easier said than done, yeah. 
'Don't judge other people's lives because what they are going through is just as difficult for them as it is for you and your life.' 
I know, I know. Statement changes all the time but the meaning's still the same. 
Okay I shall end here. 
Cheers~RockOn \(^-^)
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So. 
I'm back here again haha. 
Upset as usual .. 
Yesterday was fun, second day of Game's day. Capnet, though we sucked, ( Loss and Draw ) was DAMN awesome. 
E2 was damn sad though ... their opponents even had the CHEEK to say 'Cry then cry la!'
Slap them eh. Bloody insensitive. Hello? You won only by rematch. Keep your kpkb mouths shut. People were upset ok. Show some goddamn feelings.
Okay I don't know much about what happened after that but yeah. 
This morning I saw this really irritating scene; her and him. I wonder if i'll remember this next time. Oh well. I hate him. 
My best pal was there too and being cool as he is, just took it in his stride and continued his day. That arse. Some friend he is. MY best pal is AWESOME for tolerating your ... disgusting acts. ( My opinions, don't like then shaddup and don't read. ) Puh-leese your face is just so pukable. 
OKAY enough said about him. Ruined my whole morning. 
Obviously I made sure they looked at my bitchy look of disgust before walking on. YES I admit, I was being a bitch. He's not my friend so why should I care. 
Well cos I didn't like his face. One of the reasons. 
AND after that, I naturally ( naturally for ME ) got pissed at her. 
GREAT -.- Yesterday was I got a little pissed at her(S) cos of capnet. She didn't come. Dumb reason but hey we were all willing to work with them .. 
K FINE not my place to say. 
Anyway. 
What was I upset about? 
Ohh. Yeahh. 
So. Like. Someone started ignoring my entire existance, and yeah. Basically. Yet my other gal friends still talk to him and all that. -.- Failmax please ( Myself ) 
Nice of them to rub it in too. Well not on purpose of course, they're not bad people. Yet I can't help feeling upset. 
I'm dying for company and ... and I'm just not giving myself any. 
OKAY maybe I'm just venting and blaming everyone for RANDOM SHIT because I'm DAMN pissed at myself for not being able to be .. like how I wish I could be. 
Popular girls. They get ALL the nice special treatment from people. 
It gets hard walking in their shadow all the time .. 
YEAH like one moment I'm talking, next moment BAM they come in and I can just stop talking because *attention diverted!* 
Okay. Guess I'm jealous that they have such nice people as friends. Yeah like their friends from other classes still remain their close pals and mine ... I can only watch. 
CCAs are such pain in the heart now. I just watch them all go off and play together while I'm like #foreveralone. 
Sucks. 
Oh well. I've said it so many times before, suck it up. 
And I should.
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Perhaps if I were alone, I wouldn't hurt anyone and no one could hurt me. Every day in school is like torture. I hate it so much. I have to see everyone being what I always want to be.
I tried and ended up alone again and again.
I wasn't really joking when discussing best places to jump. Seemed like a good idea to just end it sometimes.
Hate being alone.. Even with the company of people the feeling never fades.
Smile, and suck it up.
You're on your own again.
Good things just never last
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I must be really bored to be doing this eh. 
Headache now -.- 
I know I said I wanted to fall sick, but FOR GOD'S SAKE I DIDN'T MEAN DURING THE NEW YEAR! 
Oooo 11:11! 
Okay that's lame. LOL. 
Did I mention the frame I received yesterday? MAN I have no idea where to put it ! 
Okay being 16 is like, no different. 
Doesn't even feel like my birthday was yesterday =o 
Oh well. 
Growing old =/ 
Life gets more boring. 
LOL 
Okay. Maybe I'll post later. 
For fun obviously. 
No one can stalk me heh. 
THE unknown LOL 
Yeah right. 
As long as they don't find this place! 
OK Gonna go. 
Byee~


Me 
Obviously. 
Who else ? LOL 
11:14am. 
Don't trust the timing shown below 
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Was gonna write in my awesome diary about today but damn tired now haha ><. Today was really great! Like one of the best birthdays I've ever had :P I have such wonderful friends :) thanks everyone for today!
And sadly, I'm finally 16.
Damn I sound old.
And to think I have friends who turned 15 last month!
Man I feel old!
Kk so I'm gonna sleep.
Thanks for today people!
Sam and Xi En : I'm so finding somewhere to hide that pic heh. You guys are so mean hahahaha!! XP

Cheers and rock on!
Me
Obviously.
=)
\(^-^)/
Bye!
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Man I'm such a terribly selfish, self-centered person! -.- that sucks
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How can I expect anyone to listen to my problems when I can't do well the same for others? I'm such a fool.
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Hello! 
Again. 
LOL. 
So. Last time I posted was like, what, one year? 
ONE YEAR TRADITION OH YEAH! 
Okay. That's majorly lame. 
MAN can't believe what I typed in my last post! Better start praying no one saw it.. 
You know, blogs can be like a SUPER AWESOME way of stalking people heh~ ^^
One moment you think you know someone, one blog later BAM you realise you don't know them at all.
Thank god again ( I'm no christian, just an expression ) no one ( I hope ) visits this supposedly dead blog. 
So. 
Hm. 
OMG I just read Shu Ang's dead blog and it's like DAMN FUNNY! XD 
So freaking honest that it's so funny. 
Oh yeah waittt, I wanted to type about the school year heh. 
Last day of being 15 in a lifetime =/ How sad. 
Okay. So now I'm secondary 4. AIR CON CLASSROOMS YEAH
O Levels BOO. 
Yeah my school did HORRIBLE last year and now all the teachers STRESSED. Trying to make us 'buck up' to make up for the horrible results. 
Oh well. =/ 
CNY soon! So early this year == 
Hm. So. Should I talk about 'feelings' and all that crap? =o 
I'm not exactly that kind of girl =/ 
Yeah somewhat sadly, sometimes I think I'm being seen as 'one of the guys'. 
OKAY come on man, off to the hair salon, chop my not-so-long black locks off and I'm good to go as a DUDE! 
NO WAY. I'm still like, a freaking GIRL even though I play LoL and WarCraft. 
I do play Sims3 okay! That's girly enough. Right..? 
Don't answer. 
HAHA. 
Hey this is fun. 
Okay so. Hm. Should I say it ? 
Okay. I deleted someone's number == ( prays no one sees this again ) 
Actually I didn't have to say that.
Already did in my UBER AWESOME SECRET diary =PP 
Meaning to say, I've stopped talking to someone. Yes. That shall be that person's name
GEEZ I'm SO procrastinating! 
Should totally be studying my Social Studies now. 
Ahh LATER LATER. C= 
Hm. 
Ah. I was talking about 'feelings'. 
WAIT. I said I'm not that type of girl. 
Ooooo Look! I'm typing faster now MWAHAHAHA. 
OMIGODDD FREAKING LAME. 
No one will ever see that. 
YEAH RIGHT. Internet is SO DAMN PUBLIC. 
What was I saying? Ah! about someone. 
I'm not going to say that I miss someone. Cos' that is SO not my image/style. 
Though the truth?  I dunnno heh. 
Guess someone's been nice enough to me for a year.
=/
...
Okay fine, I'm not good at letting go, especially this. 
OH DID I MENTION! 
I WENT TO CHINA XDD
Damn fun. 
DAMN FUN! 
Have I mentioned it was fun? xD
But sadly someone ... just well. OKAY not gonna talk about someone. 
Wait before that, I have something terrible to say. 
I get jealous ALL the time over things I SHOULDN'T. 
Like them talking to someone and having so much fun. 
Such a miserable life eh, Adam? 
Our ' someones' talking to each other and ignoring us. 
Okay dude, if you see it, don't reply that ><. 
Or maybe in korean! =D 
My UBER AWESOME best pal ^^ 
Yeah I'm admitting that here, not to you directly heh. 
( Prays you never find my blog though that's not really possible since I sort of stupidly brought it up to you 15 mins ago ) 
Yeah dude if you find this and happen to see the previous post, .......
Okay PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't confront me about that ( I'm talking about down to two knees begging NONONONO ) 
Embarrassing much 
Yeah. 
Physics test wasn't that bad. Felt so damn happy after that. 
OMG. It's 7.05pm alr ?? 
Noooo I don't wanna turn 16!!!! 
=/ 
Sadness.
Oh well! 
Okay okay I have to admit. 
I read Sam's blog. 
And well. Eye-opener much! 
Made me realise AGAIN that everyone has their own problems, and NEVER judge or compare because what they're going through is just as hard for them as it is for you/myself. 
Fine fine I couldn't help comparing a little though. I mean, girl! I get what you're going through. But look on the bright side! 
EVERYONE loves you. 
You have friends everywhere. You don't realise that everyday, every single day I'm jealous of the both of you? 
Living something I've always wanted. Friends. Care. Family. Being able to express yourself well. Confident. 
Some stuff I'll never have at the present. 
And okay, I know that I have NEVER cared much about my looks ( call me ugly and I don't really give a damn ) but recently it's been affecting me a little. 
A little TOO MUCH. 
I hate caring about my looks like a girly girl. ( no offence people ) 
I mean, I know I'm not the best looking girl ever ... OKAY FINE. I don't look good at all -.- 
But ... I don't know... 
You see ? You guys have looks too. Cute/pretty/whatever there is. I know damn well I don't LOL. 
WAIT. This is supposed to go into my UBER AWESOME SECRET diary =PP. Not here! 
Crap. 
Okay since I'm too lazy to delete it. 
I'm not gonna care bout me looks. It's cool being treated like one of the dudes like last time anyway. 
Or at least, that's how I see it
Once again prays no one will ever ever ever EVER see this!!!!!
Wow! 
Such a long post. 
Okay I might as well stop here. 
JYS EVERYONE FOR THE Os!!!! 
Rock on! 


Me. 
LOL. 
Obviously. 
Not-so-silent prayer : Let the blog be unknown
( On the internet? Fat chance LOL ) 
Okays. 
BYE! 
=D
 









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Hello.
Yes its been a really long time since the last post ( hm maybe a year? ) But hey I've got a life too...
I'm just feeling bored so thats why I'm here :)
Yay! Speech Day's coming. Y'know this means ( hopefully ) LESSER TRAININGS!
But somehow I kinda doubt it =.=
Aaahh time passes fast...
I have this feeling Mom's gonna fight with Dad again == So whats new?
New? Hmm lets see....
Nothing much.
I'm begining to feel that I have NO life... Do I? ( Dont answer this! )
I mean almost everyday I eat with my Mom and study myself to exhaustion.
So maybe i DO have a life.
Yea I think I do.
So what was I talking about?
YES! Whats new in life.
Hm. How about friendship problems? I get this each year =.=
Last year I felt left out.
This year? Um... lets just say disagreements with someone I know :) What type of disagreements? I guess I just dont like the way he/she throws himself/herself at the seniors. I used to worry that he/she might be taken advantage for by the seniors but now.... I guess if thats the way he/she wants to show the seniors how capable he/she is, I dont really know what to say.
Life is so uncertain. I dont even know if the person reading this ( yes you ) hates me.
In any case, I'm not going to talk about stuff like this anymore today.
Life is so lonely. My entire family is working and its not like the dog can converse with me when I'm bored. And I get bored often.
And yet you get so edgy ( or how you spell it ) when I tell you I went to EHub 2 or 3 times with my friends.
MOM! ( If you're reading this )
I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR ANYTHING!! I swear! So please dont get so ( i-dont-know-how-to-say-it ) when I go to EHub white sands or where-ever. Just because those students "date" or whatever there, doesnt mean I will. I'm a good girl ( even if i do say so myself ). I've only been to mac to eat with my friends once WITH your consent.
OK. Enough of that.
Sounds like I'm complaining. Am I complaining? ( Fine answer this if you want )
Ok. I've got no more ideas on what to write.
So. I'm gonna sign off this post :)
Ooo the moon's out already!
okok side track :P I was signing off :))
So... Yea...
Signing off,
Yan Er

PS : Dont get irritated at the he/she thing :P Its irritating to type as well! But to hide the identity... Well you do the math!

PPSS : Yea its a rather long post so u dont have to really read it all :P Hm maybe i should put this on the top... Never mind! I'll let u discover this PPSS :P
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