Supposed to be studying now but failing badly. Looks like I'm going to disappoint everyone who believed in me.
It's so tiring these days. Sometimes no matter what, I just feel so alone in this world. Yeah, the feeling has lessened but it feels like I'm just living to be living. Keeping every single thing inside . Sometimes it's so difficult to say what I want to but oh well, suck it up and move on.
Cried my heart out to my mom yesterday when I saw her. Yeah the heat made me frustrated but more than anything I just wanted my mom again. Is it too much to ask for? Well apparently it is. " you're 16, it's time you looked after yourself. Etc etc" already it annoys me at times that I have to grow up faster than what I'd like to ( selfish yes ) but I can't help missing the mom I used to have.
Guess I should be grateful for what I have. Even so.. Sigh. I tell people I'm tired but in actual fact, I don't know why.
Life's getting hard. I'm getting beat by one classmate by another. Looks like its time to leave feeling 'tired' for another time and buck up again.
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