Today!

Long time no blog here now HAHA.
So. What was I going to say? Hmm.. 
UGH my feet hurts T.T Cold weather + walk around SO MUCH = Feet pain =/ 
But what was it I wanted to say ? ><" 
Think think think think think ... 
Okay so here's one ... Like, I realised quite recently, I've been quite quick tempered and all that and MAN I didn't know that my friends found it a tad bit scary! Like, I blow up at .. small matters? >< I don't know why =/ But yeah! 
First the kinda 'self-pitying' people who think they have no friends for goodness sake WHEN THEY ACTUALLY DO OH GOD. 
See what I mean?!?! 
Okay deep breath girl. 
On one hand, it kind of reminds me of myself pitying myself a while ago. Like oh I have no picture perfect family, oh no one cares about me ETC ETC. 
Which honestly really just makes me feel downright SICK thinking about how pathetic I was then. 
Like, suck it up and move on girl! was totally what I should have done instead of playing the 'helpless Hannah' role type of thing.
Wait what was I talking about .. 
OHH okay. So it totally reminded me of ME and I was thinking 'oh man they are SO going to regret this pathetic moment of life so they should TOTALLY hurry and MOVE ON or something and BE HAPPY again!' 
Uh .. drawback to this plan is, I totally cannot be compassionate or sound caring at all!! 
It's kinda hard to when you're annoyed that everyday they're emoing and not really doing much to help themselves. I mean yeah it's hard, life ain't a WALK IN THE PARK YEAH I KNOW but come on! At least try to distract yourself or something! I don't know! 
I mean, no offence intended anywhere here! It's just my patience is extremely little and I'm trying to help too but eh I have my own problems and sometimes I'm just too wrapped up in mine to help with yours! 
Anddd another really selfish reason, no denying there is that sometimes, I'm just enjoying myself, like feeling problem-free and all that and .. your problem comes to haunt me like my own.. 
GOD I'M EMBARRASSED TO SAY THAT. 
Yeah I am such a good friend =/ 
I'll just admit it, I'm not a very good friend! =/
T.T Feet pain sniff. LOL. 
Okay I wanted to talk about how me and Vk walked from outram park to chinatown but I ended up complaining again. BIIGG surprise ><"
Another time then! 
Cheers! \(^-^)/