Having passion

I've never really understood what 'having passion for etcetc' or 'do something you have a passion in,' really meant until today.

Yes yes very fast of me, I know.

As in, I get what it means but I don't understand what it feels like. How does it feel to have an undying passion for something?

Sure, when you have a passion for something, you like doing whatever it is. You really like it. Really really really really really really like it.

Hah! I'm stating the obvious now. But saying 'really like' just doesn't do the feeling of 'passion' justice.

I spent the whole of today except for about two hours, half of which was to clean the house and the other playing squash. And I don't know if I'm right or not but oh well.

I realized that I can sit and draw the whole damn day on one piece of paper (yes that's what I did) and not get bored but get more and more excited.

Hell, I laughed to myself while inking my drawings HAHA. And I can't wait to get back at it.

So anyway. Enlightenment came only when I realised that even though my drawings were like really hideous when young and still amateurish(at best) now, I'm still drawing and drawing and drawing.

I mean, look at squash. I gave up years ago after finding out how tiring and how much I sucked at it.

Actually I'm still not really sure what having a full on passion for something means but I'll just enjoy my drawings meanwhile.

Cheers!

-.-

I'm seriously damn frustrated.

And for once, its not because of training. Nope I had fun today even though my shots and everything still sucks.

Towards the end of training my sis told me my dad was going to pick me up so i was like oh okay sure save my card money.

Then moments later after I informed my mom that my training was over like she wanted, she asked me to have lunch with her.

Its not like I didn't want to eat with her, but my dad was already downstairs.

And I know she'll obviously be disappointed since that means she'll be alone but I don't know what to do! Either way I'll feel guilty and someone will be happy but that person won't be me.

What in the world am i supposed to do? 

End of exams HELL YEAH

My arm's tired from holding my phone up since I'm lying down and my legs are exhausted and aching but since I know I won't post this tomorrow, I shall do this now.

My exams and poly year 1 has (somewhat) officially ended!

And strangely, the same way (also somewhat) the way it started; at Fish and Co.

Anyway, after pizza lunch in school (dominoes rock), we went to Siloso Beach in Sentosa to play and first the guys played their rough rugby or something like that and the girls were playing volleyball. So gender segregated right. Halfway through Adeline's ball whacked my eye and my specs bent pretty badly. Oops.

But later we played the Ryan-game or whatever because it has no name so I'll call it that. Basically it involved a ball, some number calling and dodging. Damn you Ryan for throwing the balls so high but it was still really really fun anyway!

Later at night we played in the volleyball court and it was 'captain choose team' kind of thing and well as usual one of the last few to be picked but got into Ryan's team (out of pity or something but who cares, thanks for that like really) and whoa I actually managed to use what school taught in volleyball last time for service because I could serve! (And pretty much only that). Sadly no glasses so didn't see much.

And later. At the toilet. When BaoXin and I were showering. THE LIGHTS AUTO OFF OMG I ALMOST FREAKED OUT LIKE REALLY FREAK OUT. Damn those sensors. Cannot detect us moving meh! Pft.

Dinner at fish and Co then finally home whew.

Oh and thanks Ryan (again? This is weird.) For fixing my specs, its still like crooked and all but way better than before. Won't have to walk round squinting and everything.

Whew tired. I think i typed too much even thought i tried to summarize. Pics credit to the gals who took them!

Okay thats it goodnight. 

Flip phones

Right now I'm at the NATAS fair wishing like mad I have my flip phone back. With a touch screen.

Yeah its like being super greedy, "you can't have your cake and eat it too"  but noooo i want them both I love my pink flip phone I miss it so badly.

Although no, I don't miss its shitty storage space. What the hell? 1k messages in total. Although with whatsapp now it wouldn't really matter.

I miss hanging my charms on my phones. So old school, I know, but pft please. Old fashioned, cave woman, yup that's me HAHA.

I want my pink flip phone and pink charms back. Oh man I hope someone comes up with a phone that has both touch and flip features hohoho.