Oh well.

Just finished stalking again. And while you might think its really creepy or whatever, well let's just say its on the internet. Its the most public place ever. Besides, I wouldn't have known about how so many of my friends ' mask ' themselves.
Okay so that's common sense. I mean, even I do it sometimes. But all the time? That's just sad. Or maybe I'm the sad one, keeping home problems separate from my school life so I wouldn't have to fake a mask, wouldn't have to feel miserable and still 'smile for the world!' hm I don't know. It works, kinda. I mean, why force yourself to be so miserable just to please the people around you, people who aren't going to be in your life for long? Please. Don't we all live
For ourselves? Isn't that the way it should be?
' on the verge of breaking down in school. ' I guess things must have been quite bad and yeah I shouldn't judge. Oh well.
Okay so I realize there isn't any point to these cynical ish comments. Hm. Oh I was wondering. I wonder how does it feel like to be on the verge of breaking down? Wouldn't it be better to just let it all out , or is it just a much much worse case of that? Hm
Recently, after hearing more and more about the family crap, I had this ' need to tell someone! ' feeling and it was SO bad. But oh, there wasn't anyone who could understand. And after all that with *him I realized I sort of lost the ability to confide things like that to people. Huh. Thanks for screwing my life up.
Anyway. The feeling, the frustration just kept building up and dear god up till now I still haven't released the build up yet. Probably doesn't sound serious here. Hm. Not sure how this sounds but I'm dealing with it myself, sucking it up and moving on.
Or maybe, I just pushed it one side and am living in denial again, waiting for it to slap me in the face first chance reality gets.
At this complete loss of what to do. I'm starting to appreciate what I have now little by little. Sigh only time will tell, eh?

Life right now

Supposed to be studying now but failing badly. Looks like I'm going to disappoint everyone who believed in me.
It's so tiring these days. Sometimes no matter what, I just feel so alone in this world. Yeah, the feeling has lessened but it feels like I'm just living to be living. Keeping every single thing inside . Sometimes it's so difficult to say what I want to but oh well, suck it up and move on.
Cried my heart out to my mom yesterday when I saw her. Yeah the heat made me frustrated but more than anything I just wanted my mom again. Is it too much to ask for? Well apparently it is. " you're 16, it's time you looked after yourself. Etc etc" already it annoys me at times that I have to grow up faster than what I'd like to ( selfish yes ) but I can't help missing the mom I used to have.
Guess I should be grateful for what I have. Even so.. Sigh. I tell people I'm tired but in actual fact, I don't know why.
Life's getting hard. I'm getting beat by one classmate by another. Looks like its time to leave feeling 'tired' for another time and buck up again.

Tiredd

Superrr tired now! 
Today was like a waste of time =/ Got selected for some PISA thingy and practically skipped school for it -.-
AND MY PE!!!! =((
KK I just came here to extra hahaha! 
Hopefully Friday can watch hunger games!! =D 

Cheers and rock on ~

Rainn

Today was kinda fun! =D 
Considering it was, well. A school day. -.-  At least the song 'Friday' didn't play in my head this morning! xD
Anywayy. 
PE was like the best lesson ever~ xDD Tennis and all heh. Practiced and practiced under the hot sun, running after that pink sponge ball over and over again but ... it was fun =))
Then was math which wasn't too bad, other than the stink of the classroom >< 
Well after school ended, there was this really really HEAVY downpour and we all stupidly wanted to run to EHub from school. 
Me and Aaron tried sharing an umbrella with Christopher but it was barely big enough for two, let alone three people! Naturally we all got wet =P. Even when it was just me and Christopher sharing the umbrella, we were drenched like mad =/. ( Later I found out he was trying to give me most of the shelter as I was trying to with me, that's why we both ended up soaked! ) 
It was funny seeing all the guys yelling at each other for their wet uniforms. XP Happily, I was in my PE shirt ^^  Comfort much! =D 
Okay, random stuff from today ~

Monsoon drain water brown after heavy rain =o

Black line over there's the ... water lizard thingy!

Pavement flooded with a lil' bit of water~

Well? =P 
Cheers and rock on \(^-^)/ 
Yannie ( LOL ) 

Late Night Random-ness LOL

Kk so I was like emo-ing just now over god-knows-what. But it's over! ~~
So moral of today ! LOL. Don't expect too much from others, it'll only disappoint you more when they don't do what you expect them to =/
OKAY It's a lousy moral, I know, I know >< But really! That's kinda what my aunt said. Something like .. OH SCREW THIS COMPUTER.
WAIT.
As you can see. This moody computer is randomly changing my font and color and size! Hello, rude much?! 
Okay anyways.
She said most of the time we get/feel hurt by people is because of what we expect them to do. Like oh I treat you like a best pal or whatever and I expect you to treat me like one too, and when that person doesn't you feel really upset. OR something like that. 
I mean, I guess it's normal. Really. To expect things of people. But sometimes when you feel really betrayed by someone just because you expected something of them.. really makes you sit back and think again. 
Or at least, I do.
I mean it's kinda a small thing, but I really felt angry and hurt. And! It disturbed my sleep. ( Reason why I slept in the morning yesterday during class >< ) 
Like, I entrusted this secret to someone, it was really really important to me and I specifically said that I didn't want so&so so know it. 
Well I guess I've got to give you credit for keeping it a secret for as long as you did. 
But in the end? You still told her! And my life feels ANNOYED and SCREWED UP thanks to your leakage. 
THANKS ALOT. Really.
Remind me not to trust you ever again. Sorry, but I have to protect myself. 
I'm sick and tired of being made use of by people OVER and OVER again who just ditch me after they get who they really wanted to 'keep them company' and all that. 
Sick and tired of trying to be nice to everyone who just don't bother doing the same to me.
I don't think I deserve to be treated like ( SCREW THIS COMP ) crap after how much I tried to help and be nice to you.
I don't think I deserve to get that shitty reply you gave me when I just wanted a little bit of company after I sat and listened to every single thing you had to complain about, every bit of grievances you had in your life. Just one small little thing. Is it that hard to be thankful and show some gratitude?
I don't expect anyone to do the same for me anymore. That's just really unrealistic. But a bit, a bit of appreciation would be ... appreciated! Respect and treat me like a friend, not a servant or a replacement or a stand in or something! I'm human too. 
 OKAYY this turned out to be a really LONG and BORING complain session. Shall just sign off then! 
Peace out yo
Cheers and rock on! \(^-^)/ 
-Me- 

 Drawing by me! ~
Supposed Hatsune Miku ><

....

I should just throw my phone away and stop waiting for the impossible, for something that will never ever come.

You told me to try, to talk to others, to hang out with more people so I wouldn't feel lonely, wouldn't feel alone. I tried and for a while, I foolishly felt like I finally had a place somewhere, like I found some new friends. But no, just all a lie. Just fake. Pretending to welcome me only with your smiles but not in your hearts.

alone again. More isolated than ever. Eating is a joy but eating alone all the time just becomes something to fill up the spaces of those who should be there eating with you.

Man I'm hardly this... Annoying, but really, I have no life at all.

Woahh

Woahh. 
So I just realised that.. I can insert pictures! 
Okays that is like damn slow.. but anyway! As you can see --> 
yeah? My mood's like that now =P
That's my dog by the way! She's sooooo adorable! XP  
Now I can put pictures, yay! Time to start spamming the ipod. HEH. 

 Nice? HAHA. I don't even remember where this is. Just some overhead bridge that I passed by with Gen that day when we decided to take bus 21 to as far as possible. I wonder what I used to edit the photo....

Well I'm just putting random stuff here now, things that appeal to me, heh. 
Sam and me in China on some boat ride .. It was hard to take this picture! Bad lighting and all that >< 

We-ell. 
One of the lunches in China. Mostly people from my class! Became quite good friends with one or two of them after the trip ^^ I love such bonding HAHA. 
And as you can see, we didn't finish the food heh =P It was hard to! In fact, we never did =o I swear everyone lost weight after that trip! 
Okay, I shall do a bit of stalking before hitting the hay. 
Nighhts!

Sighhh

People, seriously? 
What's everyone's ( including me ) problem recently! 
OKAY fine, maybe it's just today. 
Sigh I hate seeing her like this. Their her friends! Support, not reject! 
Geez. 
I know it sucks seeing one of the clique go off with others, kinda like a betrayal. But her heart was always with you guys, she loves and cares for you guys so much, don't stress her like this! 
We'll back off, it that's what you want. Stop stealing her. 
GEEZZ. 
I guess it's like a test of friendship then, every clique needs it. 
Cheer up Kez, it'll be fine. They mean well, everything will be all right. 

Hell YEAH

Dear people. 
I will never ever put light colors for the fonts EVER again. 
Thank GOD I didn't blog so much! Otherwise, imagine how much I would have to change ... 
So, anyway. 
As you can see! It's a new skin YEY. 
Been looking for one for MONTHS.
And I'm going to stay satisfied with this one! =)) 
While changing font colors, I skimmed through my old posts and MAN OH MAN. Am I glad to have grown up! 
No, really. It's like ... HUGE difference! Can't believe I sounded so .. childish =/ 
OKAY FINE. Not that I'm that  mature now, but at least there's a difference! 
Seeing all that made me realise time has really passed. Years with me barely realising it. Just then I was, what? 10 and complaining about a b*tch and six years later I'm still here ... only I know better than to complain too much online =P 
Oh, nooo~. Those are reserved for the super awesome diary of mine! ^^
( Only if I feel hardworking enough though ) 
Anyways. Recently, I've come to appreciate the whole 'be yourself' thing. 
I don't have to act like them ( no one in particular, just 'them like the popular gals or something ) ( okay I lied, I am referring to someone/people). 
Ahem anyways. 
I don't have to be like them to be happy. All they're doing is getting attention which I don't want. Then comes the question why did I even consider being like them? 
Jealousy maybe. 
But well.. Let's just say I've seen the light. 
I am who I am, take it or leave it. I try my best not to be fake in anyway. Not to act just to get attention. 
And, like my mom said. She didn't raise her daughters to run around in public hitting boys ( there goes my days of whacking them ) 
But it's nice treating them as humans and not enemies for once. They have feelings too. 
OKAY OFF TOPIC. 
Hm. OH the hunger games book ONE is nice. The rest ain't so good. 
Okay okay, I'm thirsty and that 100plus in the fridge is calling my name. 
Just remember; everyone has their own set of problems which is as hard for them as yours is for you. Don't judge. 
That's my reminder. 
BTW TINTIN RAWKS! XD 
OKOKOK
Byee~
Cheers and rock on! 
 
 

You know what ? I'm just gonna tell her that. Take my advice and don't listen to me. 

Yeah, I should. But since the blog's.. non-commentable, I think I'll just write a note and give her tomorrow.. as discreetly and possible, hm. 

BTW. LOL How could I forget. 

People are making a fuss over Valentine's Day. LOL 

No offence people. 

But.. To be honest, I had totally forgotten about it. Heh. 

Forever alone LOL. 

Hey wait, I wonder if I've mentioned this before...

Hm =/. 

Oh well, off to prepare for damn school tomorrow! 

Till then~

Stalking

Hello again LOL. 

Yess. I'm back from a five minute stalk on my friend online. 

Not to mention the 3 second snoop on my dad's phone. >< It was ringing so .. I went to look at the incoming ...whatsapp message thingy. 

Thank god iPhones are 'idiot phones' . Otherwise, snooping can get a lil' difficult. =P 

So. Like I've said/thought before. Stalking is a great way of .. discovering more about people and realising that they're just putting on a brave front etc. 

To be mean, maybe one can say they're being fake to cover up their insecurities. YES I KNOW. I do that too. Welcome my fake friends. LOL. I'm joking. Joking! Really. 

And, well. Here are my findings today! 

Friend S. Man if she sees this, it's so DAMN obvious. Oh well. I'mma take a risk. 

She's feeling insecure again. I was looking for a 'comment' thingy to .. well comment on that post and cheer her up but I couldn't find any. =/

Apparently she likes someone and...well. Same old storyline being played over and over in everyone's life. Afraid that that someone would like someone better. Another prettier, smarter, more attractive person. Thin, too. 

Isn't it funny? Ironic, maybe? How she  fears that she isn't good enough, that there's someone out there better than her when she herself is that someone I feel is better than me. 

YES. 

I share her exact same fears. Only I know who the 'someone better' is. Her and the other gal friend. 

Come on! They are SO popular. SO pretty/cute. Everyone, everyone loves and cares for them. Friendly with them. ( Yeah its my fault on that last one) 

But still. 

Makes me jealous much ><. 

She's afraid of being inferior; when she is the one that makes me feel inferior! 

I guess Life is just having fun screwing around with our confidence. One after another. Next thing I know, the uber pretty, cute and popular girl in school is worrying about being ugly and not well-liked. 

That'd be really .... dumb. 

WAIT. Completely sidetracked. 

I was talking about her. 

Geez if only writing in my diary were as easy as typing. 

Ahem. Anyway.

According to her, she's been bottling up everything and 'sucking up and moving on'. 

How strangely familiar. Damnit friend, my bad. Take my advice and don't listen to me. 

Yeah I was the one who mentioned 'sucking up and moving on'. 

I feel responsible for it. I'm sorry my friend ><. My advice sucks, yeah. 

Bottling up messed up feelings is never good. Oh ho trust me, I know. 

On the other hand, since my .. feeling-tolerance level is not so high, bottling lesser than what they can makes me want to break down. 

Yeah just call me Miss Weak. 

No, don't. It's for me, not you. 

LOL. 

The good thing is.. she's gonna take responsibility for her life etc. I guess we all have our own different ways of relieving stress and dealing with the shit Life throws at us huh. 

Just another reminder to appreciate my life no matter how crappy I think it is, because there is always someone out there who feels the same for other reasons or just have a worse life. 

Easier said than done, yeah. 

'Don't judge other people's lives because what they are going through is just as difficult for them as it is for you and your life.' 

I know, I know. Statement changes all the time but the meaning's still the same. 

Okay I shall end here. 

Cheers~RockOn \(^-^)

..

Ughh here we go again. 

I'll be nice ~. I hope. 

And I do wish this comp won't lag. 

Like when I type 'enter'. Dude! I haven't used you for days. Compared to when I was playing my games all the time, this is holiday. Be nicer to me comp ~

Holy shit. Since when did my enter button turn into a backspace?! 

OMG. Okay comp. I'll stop singing in front of you if that's what you're being pissed about .. 

Wait!! Totally sidetracked from what I was going to say. 

... Okay dude-comp. Stop being so random! 

Ahem forget it. 

Nice timing man. Just when I was wondering if you're done making use of me, you come back all upset and expecting the 'treat ppl how etc.' 

Hm. This is totally public so pray no one sees this random crap. 

Yeah I could just put it in drafts but .. where's the satisfaction in that! LOL. No sense. OK NVM HAHA. 

Holy crap this comp is really random. 

Hm. 

But since well .. i dunno .. 

OKay forget it, gotta go unc's house soon. When my sis wakes up HAHA

OMG Worse nightmare ever. What if my mom discovers this site?! SCREWED MAX. 

OKAY not gonna think about that. 

Byee

Cheers~Rock on \(^-^)/ 

Not really, actually. 

Oh well~

*Prays* 

Yo

So. 
I'm back here again haha. 
Upset as usual .. 
Yesterday was fun, second day of Game's day. Capnet, though we sucked, ( Loss and Draw ) was DAMN awesome. 
E2 was damn sad though ... their opponents even had the CHEEK to say 'Cry then cry la!'
Slap them eh. Bloody insensitive. Hello? You won only by rematch. Keep your kpkb mouths shut. People were upset ok. Show some goddamn feelings.
Okay I don't know much about what happened after that but yeah. 
This morning I saw this really irritating scene; her and him. I wonder if i'll remember this next time. Oh well. I hate him. 
My best pal was there too and being cool as he is, just took it in his stride and continued his day. That arse. Some friend he is. MY best pal is AWESOME for tolerating your ... disgusting acts. ( My opinions, don't like then shaddup and don't read. ) Puh-leese your face is just so pukable. 
OKAY enough said about him. Ruined my whole morning. 
Obviously I made sure they looked at my bitchy look of disgust before walking on. YES I admit, I was being a bitch. He's not my friend so why should I care. 
Well cos I didn't like his face. One of the reasons. 
AND after that, I naturally ( naturally for ME ) got pissed at her. 
GREAT -.- Yesterday was I got a little pissed at her(S) cos of capnet. She didn't come. Dumb reason but hey we were all willing to work with them .. 
K FINE not my place to say. 
Anyway. 
What was I upset about? 
Ohh. Yeahh. 
So. Like. Someone started ignoring my entire existance, and yeah. Basically. Yet my other gal friends still talk to him and all that. -.- Failmax please ( Myself ) 
Nice of them to rub it in too. Well not on purpose of course, they're not bad people. Yet I can't help feeling upset. 
I'm dying for company and ... and I'm just not giving myself any. 
OKAY maybe I'm just venting and blaming everyone for RANDOM SHIT because I'm DAMN pissed at myself for not being able to be .. like how I wish I could be. 
Popular girls. They get ALL the nice special treatment from people. 
It gets hard walking in their shadow all the time .. 
YEAH like one moment I'm talking, next moment BAM they come in and I can just stop talking because *attention diverted!* 
Okay. Guess I'm jealous that they have such nice people as friends. Yeah like their friends from other classes still remain their close pals and mine ... I can only watch. 
CCAs are such pain in the heart now. I just watch them all go off and play together while I'm like #foreveralone. 
Sucks. 
Oh well. I've said it so many times before, suck it up. 
And I should.

Perhaps if I were alone, I wouldn't hurt anyone and no one could hurt me. Every day in school is like torture. I hate it so much. I have to see everyone being what I always want to be.
I tried and ended up alone again and again.
I wasn't really joking when discussing best places to jump. Seemed like a good idea to just end it sometimes.
Hate being alone.. Even with the company of people the feeling never fades.
Smile, and suck it up.
You're on your own again.
Good things just never last

I must be really bored to be doing this eh. 
Headache now -.- 
I know I said I wanted to fall sick, but FOR GOD'S SAKE I DIDN'T MEAN DURING THE NEW YEAR! 
Oooo 11:11! 
Okay that's lame. LOL. 
Did I mention the frame I received yesterday? MAN I have no idea where to put it ! 
Okay being 16 is like, no different. 
Doesn't even feel like my birthday was yesterday =o 
Oh well. 
Growing old =/ 
Life gets more boring. 
LOL 
Okay. Maybe I'll post later. 
For fun obviously. 
No one can stalk me heh. 
THE unknown LOL 
Yeah right. 
As long as they don't find this place! 
OK Gonna go. 
Byee~


Me 
Obviously. 
Who else ? LOL 
11:14am. 
Don't trust the timing shown below 

Was gonna write in my awesome diary about today but damn tired now haha ><. Today was really great! Like one of the best birthdays I've ever had :P I have such wonderful friends :) thanks everyone for today!
And sadly, I'm finally 16.
Damn I sound old.
And to think I have friends who turned 15 last month!
Man I feel old!
Kk so I'm gonna sleep.
Thanks for today people!
Sam and Xi En : I'm so finding somewhere to hide that pic heh. You guys are so mean hahahaha!! XP

Cheers and rock on!
Me
Obviously.
=)
\(^-^)/
Bye!

Man I'm such a terribly selfish, self-centered person! -.- that sucks

How can I expect anyone to listen to my problems when I can't do well the same for others? I'm such a fool.

Omg the timing is like so off...

Man. Font ain't look good but it sure is fun!

Testing with the iPod!

Um ok.. I wonder if this works at all!

Back again HAHAHA.

Hello! 
Again. 
LOL. 
So. Last time I posted was like, what, one year? 
ONE YEAR TRADITION OH YEAH! 
Okay. That's majorly lame. 
MAN can't believe what I typed in my last post! Better start praying no one saw it.. 
You know, blogs can be like a SUPER AWESOME way of stalking people heh~ ^^
One moment you think you know someone, one blog later BAM you realise you don't know them at all.
Thank god again ( I'm no christian, just an expression ) no one ( I hope ) visits this supposedly dead blog. 
So. 
Hm. 
OMG I just read Shu Ang's dead blog and it's like DAMN FUNNY! XD 
So freaking honest that it's so funny. 
Oh yeah waittt, I wanted to type about the school year heh. 
Last day of being 15 in a lifetime =/ How sad. 
Okay. So now I'm secondary 4. AIR CON CLASSROOMS YEAH
O Levels BOO. 
Yeah my school did HORRIBLE last year and now all the teachers STRESSED. Trying to make us 'buck up' to make up for the horrible results. 
Oh well. =/ 
CNY soon! So early this year == 
Hm. So. Should I talk about 'feelings' and all that crap? =o 
I'm not exactly that kind of girl =/ 
Yeah somewhat sadly, sometimes I think I'm being seen as 'one of the guys'. 
OKAY come on man, off to the hair salon, chop my not-so-long black locks off and I'm good to go as a DUDE! 
NO WAY. I'm still like, a freaking GIRL even though I play LoL and WarCraft. 
I do play Sims3 okay! That's girly enough. Right..? 
Don't answer. 
HAHA. 
Hey this is fun. 
Okay so. Hm. Should I say it ? 
Okay. I deleted someone's number == ( prays no one sees this again ) 
Actually I didn't have to say that.
Already did in my UBER AWESOME SECRET diary =PP 
Meaning to say, I've stopped talking to someone. Yes. That shall be that person's name
GEEZ I'm SO procrastinating! 
Should totally be studying my Social Studies now. 
Ahh LATER LATER. C= 
Hm. 
Ah. I was talking about 'feelings'. 
WAIT. I said I'm not that type of girl. 
Ooooo Look! I'm typing faster now MWAHAHAHA. 
OMIGODDD FREAKING LAME. 
No one will ever see that. 
YEAH RIGHT. Internet is SO DAMN PUBLIC. 
What was I saying? Ah! about someone. 
I'm not going to say that I miss someone. Cos' that is SO not my image/style. 
Though the truth?  I dunnno heh. 
Guess someone's been nice enough to me for a year.
=/
...
Okay fine, I'm not good at letting go, especially this. 
OH DID I MENTION! 
I WENT TO CHINA XDD
Damn fun. 
DAMN FUN! 
Have I mentioned it was fun? xD
But sadly someone ... just well. OKAY not gonna talk about someone. 
Wait before that, I have something terrible to say. 
I get jealous ALL the time over things I SHOULDN'T. 
Like them talking to someone and having so much fun. 
Such a miserable life eh, Adam? 
Our ' someones' talking to each other and ignoring us. 
Okay dude, if you see it, don't reply that ><. 
Or maybe in korean! =D 
My UBER AWESOME best pal ^^ 
Yeah I'm admitting that here, not to you directly heh. 
( Prays you never find my blog though that's not really possible since I sort of stupidly brought it up to you 15 mins ago ) 
Yeah dude if you find this and happen to see the previous post, .......
Okay PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't confront me about that ( I'm talking about down to two knees begging NONONONO ) 
Embarrassing much 
Yeah. 
Physics test wasn't that bad. Felt so damn happy after that. 
OMG. It's 7.05pm alr ?? 
Noooo I don't wanna turn 16!!!! 
=/ 
Sadness.
Oh well! 
Okay okay I have to admit. 
I read Sam's blog. 
And well. Eye-opener much! 
Made me realise AGAIN that everyone has their own problems, and NEVER judge or compare because what they're going through is just as hard for them as it is for you/myself. 
Fine fine I couldn't help comparing a little though. I mean, girl! I get what you're going through. But look on the bright side! 
EVERYONE loves you. 
You have friends everywhere. You don't realise that everyday, every single day I'm jealous of the both of you? 
Living something I've always wanted. Friends. Care. Family. Being able to express yourself well. Confident. 
Some stuff I'll never have at the present. 
And okay, I know that I have NEVER cared much about my looks ( call me ugly and I don't really give a damn ) but recently it's been affecting me a little. 
A little TOO MUCH. 
I hate caring about my looks like a girly girl. ( no offence people ) 
I mean, I know I'm not the best looking girl ever ... OKAY FINE. I don't look good at all -.- 
But ... I don't know... 
You see ? You guys have looks too. Cute/pretty/whatever there is. I know damn well I don't LOL. 
WAIT. This is supposed to go into my UBER AWESOME SECRET diary =PP. Not here! 
Crap. 
Okay since I'm too lazy to delete it. 
I'm not gonna care bout me looks. It's cool being treated like one of the dudes like last time anyway. 
Or at least, that's how I see it
Once again prays no one will ever ever ever EVER see this!!!!!
Wow! 
Such a long post. 
Okay I might as well stop here. 
JYS EVERYONE FOR THE Os!!!! 
Rock on! 


Me. 
LOL. 
Obviously. 
Not-so-silent prayer : Let the blog be unknown
( On the internet? Fat chance LOL ) 
Okays. 
BYE! 
=D
 

BACK HAHA

So.

I'm back.

After like, a year plus LOL.

Out of boredom, as usual.

Actually, I'm just REALLY upset and lonely. Thank god no one reads this DEAD blog anymore!

Well. My best pal's overseas. Yay he's coming back this week. Boo that I'm jealous all he thinks about it the girl he likes. ( FYI I HAVE NO DESIGNS ON HIM )

It's just that I try to help him so much, listen to him when he has problems, and when I have problems all he's thinking about is her ...

OKAY ANYWAY

It's the holidays ! YAY. And next year. O'Levels -.-

MAN THAT SUCKS

So fast !!

And I haven't even decided JC or POLY.

Well, wait. I was talking about being UPSET and LONELY.

Well.. then , there was this guy I messaged A LOT, I don't know why but he's suddenly .. gone. Like, not replying much. Not as .. the exactly the same. I wonder if he knows ...

OKAY WHATEVER. Probably thinking and worrying about the girl he likes.

MEN ARE ALL THE SAME !!!!!!!!!

At least have to decency to TELL me what i did !!

SIGH.

I'm so SICK AND TIRED of trying to help everyone and be nice to them!

Because, when I need someone to tell MY problems and SHIT ABOUT LIFE, everyone just DISAPPEARS.

Thanks so much man. I know you CARE so much -.-

MEN. ALL THE SAME.

Yes, yes. Women. The same also. But actually.. Not so much !

Well. What can i say ? I'm a feminist. =)

What else ... 

Oh well. Resigned to a fate of loneliness. They're all gone. I might as well accept that. 

Hm. Maybe I should use a blog more often ! NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT THIS EH ? HEH HEH HEH. 

OKAY Gonna sign out ! 

ROCK ON ! \(^-^ )

Me ~

Hello.
Yes its been a really long time since the last post ( hm maybe a year? ) But hey I've got a life too...
I'm just feeling bored so thats why I'm here :)
Yay! Speech Day's coming. Y'know this means ( hopefully ) LESSER TRAININGS!
But somehow I kinda doubt it =.=
Aaahh time passes fast...
I have this feeling Mom's gonna fight with Dad again == So whats new?
New? Hmm lets see....
Nothing much.
I'm begining to feel that I have NO life... Do I? ( Dont answer this! )
I mean almost everyday I eat with my Mom and study myself to exhaustion.
So maybe i DO have a life.
Yea I think I do.
So what was I talking about?
YES! Whats new in life.
Hm. How about friendship problems? I get this each year =.=
Last year I felt left out.
This year? Um... lets just say disagreements with someone I know :) What type of disagreements? I guess I just dont like the way he/she throws himself/herself at the seniors. I used to worry that he/she might be taken advantage for by the seniors but now.... I guess if thats the way he/she wants to show the seniors how capable he/she is, I dont really know what to say.
Life is so uncertain. I dont even know if the person reading this ( yes you ) hates me.
In any case, I'm not going to talk about stuff like this anymore today.
Life is so lonely. My entire family is working and its not like the dog can converse with me when I'm bored. And I get bored often.
And yet you get so edgy ( or how you spell it ) when I tell you I went to EHub 2 or 3 times with my friends.
MOM! ( If you're reading this )
I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR ANYTHING!! I swear! So please dont get so ( i-dont-know-how-to-say-it ) when I go to EHub white sands or where-ever. Just because those students "date" or whatever there, doesnt mean I will. I'm a good girl ( even if i do say so myself ). I've only been to mac to eat with my friends once WITH your consent.
OK. Enough of that.
Sounds like I'm complaining. Am I complaining? ( Fine answer this if you want )
Ok. I've got no more ideas on what to write.
So. I'm gonna sign off this post :)
Ooo the moon's out already!
okok side track :P I was signing off :))
So... Yea...
Signing off,
Yan Er

PS : Dont get irritated at the he/she thing :P Its irritating to type as well! But to hide the identity... Well you do the math!

PPSS : Yea its a rather long post so u dont have to really read it all :P Hm maybe i should put this on the top... Never mind! I'll let u discover this PPSS :P