You know what ? I'm just gonna tell her that. Take my advice and don't listen to me. 

Yeah, I should. But since the blog's.. non-commentable, I think I'll just write a note and give her tomorrow.. as discreetly and possible, hm. 

BTW. LOL How could I forget. 

People are making a fuss over Valentine's Day. LOL 

No offence people. 

But.. To be honest, I had totally forgotten about it. Heh. 

Forever alone LOL. 

Hey wait, I wonder if I've mentioned this before...

Hm =/. 

Oh well, off to prepare for damn school tomorrow! 

Till then~

Stalking

Hello again LOL. 

Yess. I'm back from a five minute stalk on my friend online. 

Not to mention the 3 second snoop on my dad's phone. >< It was ringing so .. I went to look at the incoming ...whatsapp message thingy. 

Thank god iPhones are 'idiot phones' . Otherwise, snooping can get a lil' difficult. =P 

So. Like I've said/thought before. Stalking is a great way of .. discovering more about people and realising that they're just putting on a brave front etc. 

To be mean, maybe one can say they're being fake to cover up their insecurities. YES I KNOW. I do that too. Welcome my fake friends. LOL. I'm joking. Joking! Really. 

And, well. Here are my findings today! 

Friend S. Man if she sees this, it's so DAMN obvious. Oh well. I'mma take a risk. 

She's feeling insecure again. I was looking for a 'comment' thingy to .. well comment on that post and cheer her up but I couldn't find any. =/

Apparently she likes someone and...well. Same old storyline being played over and over in everyone's life. Afraid that that someone would like someone better. Another prettier, smarter, more attractive person. Thin, too. 

Isn't it funny? Ironic, maybe? How she  fears that she isn't good enough, that there's someone out there better than her when she herself is that someone I feel is better than me. 

YES. 

I share her exact same fears. Only I know who the 'someone better' is. Her and the other gal friend. 

Come on! They are SO popular. SO pretty/cute. Everyone, everyone loves and cares for them. Friendly with them. ( Yeah its my fault on that last one) 

But still. 

Makes me jealous much ><. 

She's afraid of being inferior; when she is the one that makes me feel inferior! 

I guess Life is just having fun screwing around with our confidence. One after another. Next thing I know, the uber pretty, cute and popular girl in school is worrying about being ugly and not well-liked. 

That'd be really .... dumb. 

WAIT. Completely sidetracked. 

I was talking about her. 

Geez if only writing in my diary were as easy as typing. 

Ahem. Anyway.

According to her, she's been bottling up everything and 'sucking up and moving on'. 

How strangely familiar. Damnit friend, my bad. Take my advice and don't listen to me. 

Yeah I was the one who mentioned 'sucking up and moving on'. 

I feel responsible for it. I'm sorry my friend ><. My advice sucks, yeah. 

Bottling up messed up feelings is never good. Oh ho trust me, I know. 

On the other hand, since my .. feeling-tolerance level is not so high, bottling lesser than what they can makes me want to break down. 

Yeah just call me Miss Weak. 

No, don't. It's for me, not you. 

LOL. 

The good thing is.. she's gonna take responsibility for her life etc. I guess we all have our own different ways of relieving stress and dealing with the shit Life throws at us huh. 

Just another reminder to appreciate my life no matter how crappy I think it is, because there is always someone out there who feels the same for other reasons or just have a worse life. 

Easier said than done, yeah. 

'Don't judge other people's lives because what they are going through is just as difficult for them as it is for you and your life.' 

I know, I know. Statement changes all the time but the meaning's still the same. 

Okay I shall end here. 

Cheers~RockOn \(^-^)

..

Ughh here we go again. 

I'll be nice ~. I hope. 

And I do wish this comp won't lag. 

Like when I type 'enter'. Dude! I haven't used you for days. Compared to when I was playing my games all the time, this is holiday. Be nicer to me comp ~

Holy shit. Since when did my enter button turn into a backspace?! 

OMG. Okay comp. I'll stop singing in front of you if that's what you're being pissed about .. 

Wait!! Totally sidetracked from what I was going to say. 

... Okay dude-comp. Stop being so random! 

Ahem forget it. 

Nice timing man. Just when I was wondering if you're done making use of me, you come back all upset and expecting the 'treat ppl how etc.' 

Hm. This is totally public so pray no one sees this random crap. 

Yeah I could just put it in drafts but .. where's the satisfaction in that! LOL. No sense. OK NVM HAHA. 

Holy crap this comp is really random. 

Hm. 

But since well .. i dunno .. 

OKay forget it, gotta go unc's house soon. When my sis wakes up HAHA

OMG Worse nightmare ever. What if my mom discovers this site?! SCREWED MAX. 

OKAY not gonna think about that. 

Byee

Cheers~Rock on \(^-^)/ 

Not really, actually. 

Oh well~

*Prays* 

Yo

So. 
I'm back here again haha. 
Upset as usual .. 
Yesterday was fun, second day of Game's day. Capnet, though we sucked, ( Loss and Draw ) was DAMN awesome. 
E2 was damn sad though ... their opponents even had the CHEEK to say 'Cry then cry la!'
Slap them eh. Bloody insensitive. Hello? You won only by rematch. Keep your kpkb mouths shut. People were upset ok. Show some goddamn feelings.
Okay I don't know much about what happened after that but yeah. 
This morning I saw this really irritating scene; her and him. I wonder if i'll remember this next time. Oh well. I hate him. 
My best pal was there too and being cool as he is, just took it in his stride and continued his day. That arse. Some friend he is. MY best pal is AWESOME for tolerating your ... disgusting acts. ( My opinions, don't like then shaddup and don't read. ) Puh-leese your face is just so pukable. 
OKAY enough said about him. Ruined my whole morning. 
Obviously I made sure they looked at my bitchy look of disgust before walking on. YES I admit, I was being a bitch. He's not my friend so why should I care. 
Well cos I didn't like his face. One of the reasons. 
AND after that, I naturally ( naturally for ME ) got pissed at her. 
GREAT -.- Yesterday was I got a little pissed at her(S) cos of capnet. She didn't come. Dumb reason but hey we were all willing to work with them .. 
K FINE not my place to say. 
Anyway. 
What was I upset about? 
Ohh. Yeahh. 
So. Like. Someone started ignoring my entire existance, and yeah. Basically. Yet my other gal friends still talk to him and all that. -.- Failmax please ( Myself ) 
Nice of them to rub it in too. Well not on purpose of course, they're not bad people. Yet I can't help feeling upset. 
I'm dying for company and ... and I'm just not giving myself any. 
OKAY maybe I'm just venting and blaming everyone for RANDOM SHIT because I'm DAMN pissed at myself for not being able to be .. like how I wish I could be. 
Popular girls. They get ALL the nice special treatment from people. 
It gets hard walking in their shadow all the time .. 
YEAH like one moment I'm talking, next moment BAM they come in and I can just stop talking because *attention diverted!* 
Okay. Guess I'm jealous that they have such nice people as friends. Yeah like their friends from other classes still remain their close pals and mine ... I can only watch. 
CCAs are such pain in the heart now. I just watch them all go off and play together while I'm like #foreveralone. 
Sucks. 
Oh well. I've said it so many times before, suck it up. 
And I should.