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No, I don't like this feeling. Hahahaha actually, it's just like that silly song lyric that goes hello darkness my old friend.

No, no. I'm being melodramatic. This feeling will pass eventually, when - I sure as hell hope it's before I leave for my dental appointment.

It's so stupid. Okay wait no. Cannot anyhow say stupid. Let's try to work this out.

Feeling sad/upset because someone else is feeling down and there's absolutely nothing I can do.

And nothing I say or do is helping or working. What if it's making things worse? Then if I were to just poof from contact.. Nope that's selfish and stupid too.

Maybe it's just the feeling of helplessness or, more bluntly - being useless.

Can't even find a job for the semester either. And I'm so damn broke. I can see the failure in life just charging at me full speed ahead.

But I digress.

I need to get out of this stupid feeling. Its heavy. And I absolutely hate it.

Okay. I don't really understand why I'm feeling like that la. Someone is sad therefore I am sad. I feel useless to the person feeling sad therefore I feel even more sad. I'm trying to maintain some decent level of cheer in desperate attempt to be useful to someone despite being upset which therefore makes me even more upset because.... Dissonance? I don't know.

Okay. Good summary though.

It feels like I'm going to lose something. No, not my mind, haha.

Is a brief moment of happiness better than nothing at all? I don't know, I'm kinda scared.

Grip hard, girl. And toss that stupid feeling out the window. Enough wallowing for the day.