Hello my good friend procrastination

I'm sleepy. Tired. And for some goddamn reason my back has been aching these past few days. What did I do? Feel so old like this. Can you stop aching? My period is over, the backaches are supposed to be during the period, not after damnit. Can this body of mine just freaking function normally or not.

Anyway, after being reminded of the existence of my dear old blog, it has become a site of procrastination in the name of improving English writing.

Hah.

So obviously, the only reason I'm here typing and not doing my work is because procrastination there is so much I can't wait to share with the world~!

Pfft.

Also, the real question is to drink or not to drink that last can of Boss coffee in the fridge. I somehow doubt that it'll wake me up, and I really don't want to end up associating that gorgeous drink with late night chiongings. Nescafe can tank that job, but Boss coffee is sacred.

I mean, I did finish most of the book report just now for Japanese. It counts as work, right? Maybe if I finish the kanji writings I'll feel like I've done more work. Okay I'll get to it now, then maybe clear some of the clothes on the bed and sleep.

Sigh.

By the way, I really don't see how money motivates people, because that motivation for me is just about squeezed dry. Almost hitting the point where yeah, I'd rather starve, you know.

Just hang in there, Er.

月

Tonight is a night of natural wonders indeed, for the gorgeous, yellow moon has graced my night with its presence.

Although, since my fascination is with the sky, perhaps this may seem simple and mundane to others.

Nonetheless, it hangs low in the sky, its quiet yellow hue contrasted by the dull, grey blue sky.

And yet, it's the most majestic thing I've seen all month.

Okay dinner time!

Grey clouds

I noticed it the moment I stepped out of the mall.

The sky, usually a bright, soft blue, was now overcast. I stopped in my tracks, stood and lifted my face to the clouds.

The wind carried with it a hint of rain, just a tiny bit, but after years of searching and sniffing for the rain, its scent was unmistakable.

The words 'overcast' and 'gloomy' usually go hand and hand, but it felt anything but.

It was one of those moments, you know? The kind that only the sky can create by just being itself.

The kind that makes me feel happy to just be alive in that moment.

雨が来るよ。

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Okay I promise, I swear to myself I'll stop after this. I really need go do some work before... Work... Heh.

What is wrong with this second male lead? Running everywhere to every girl but the one he loves and the one that loves him!

Can they all just.... get it together and happily ever after?! I need to get on with my life and stop chasing his dumb drama sobs.

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I should really stop, I have work to do. But this is really addictive!

The woman in this story is so freaking messed up like hello, priorities?

Or just plain selfish, actually.

Wrong her own cousin and end up forcing her into some arranged marriage then cause her to fall out with the guy she really likes, but still more concerned that she won't be able to get close to the other guy if she tells the truth and apologizes???

I feel like I've been saying this alot recently, but GET A GRIP GIRL.

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Are you serious?

That's what you're upset about??

Not being able to act as his lover???

Hello, woman your priorities fly until where already?

Oh! The translator thought the same too! I'M NOT ALONE IN MY JUDGEMENTS.

Did I mention I'm screwed?

I just found out moments ago that I have a book report due for Japanese this coming Wednesday.

Book report? Book report?

I figured we'd just have to write about a book we read etc but my friend just sent me a message asking if just talking about it was fine and I'm just staring at it thinking, "What???"

Talking about it. Script.

Are you telling me that this is an oral book report???

Good holy oreos and coffee cans how did I not know that at all!

...

I just read the instructions.

!@#$ ME.

Present without looking at the script? In English ya can ah but in Japanese how about hell no.

Eh, shit la.

Actually the best part is that I don't fully understand the instructions because it's in Japanese hahahaha.

Die leh. Really die liao le like that.

So .... should I go to bed, or should I carry on tonight?

Last night seems like light years away at this point.

Good hell I am so royally screwed

So normally I would be writing this in my diary, but since the computer is right in front of me now and the diary is somewhere in the shelf above, this wins hands down.

Also, the existence of this blog was reminded to me by a dear friend so I guess this won't die out just yet!

YES am I so (I cursed in my mind and I typed it out but to maintain the non-existent image of my non-cursing self I shall not use it) screwed for this! I wonder if I can still pass this mod at the rate I'm going.

Pragmatics? Syntax? Do I know these??

Good hell I don't know what I'm doing in this major, or actually, what am I doing in university???

I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. Or studying. GAH. HELP.

Okay, okay. I need to seriously chill before I go into full panic mode and that is not somewhere I want to step into again. Hell no.

BREATHE. Let us just introduce the origin of the word first okay Er. 一步一步来。

Okay. Yup. Everything will be fine, it's all good! ^.^

Watch me run from my essay

Honestly, the only reason I'm back here is because I don't want to do my work I have so much time in this world and I have so many~ things I want to talk about~! 

HAH please. 

Help la. 

I don't know how to do my project leh. 

How you tell me. I'm like, aiming for 2500 words for this but WHERE TO START AIYO. 

Say, 'Feel free to start with your analysis, there is no need for introduction or conclusion,' but then the model papers all got intro and conclusion. So you want one anot? 

TSK. 

Haven't start 就 complain liao. 

...

I miss drawing so much though. It's like, as I'm typing away I can see my unfinished sketch lying just behind me laptop screaming at me to complete it. 

How do people do it? Study, work (work!!!), play (PLAY!!!) and freaking draw!!! 

I can't even juggle one on its own and people can do so many at once? While still getting the right amount of sleep? Am I missing something? 

Oh right. Discipline.  

Oops. 

Which, I clearly lack because if I had a hint of discipline and willpower, I wouldn't be here right now complaining and all that. 

See la girl. Get a grip can or not? 

Sounds like my motto for the next month or so hmm. 

Oh wow~! Look at the time ~. 1.30pm and I've done absolutely nothing~!  

Seriously though, I'm quite screwed. 

... 

Okay. Yeah. I should... at least start on something. 

GAH. 

I want to play. 

In another month-ish or so? 

OH LOOK IT'S THE SECOND LAST DAY OF THE MONTH. YES I will be flush with money again soon. No thanks to my spending habits, why do I keep doing this to myself? 

OKAY BYE I'll stop procrastinating. Although a tea break sounds good about now. 

Hmm. 

Quick reminder Er

It's the memories that you miss, Er. Not the person. Don't forget that okay.

Although in the case of Fluffy, it's really that bitch that I miss. Damn you la Fi. Can you live longer anot? I need your fur therapy. I'm going crazy in school like that you know?

LOL look at how quickly it went from serious to this.

TSK. But I see that first line again I feel disgusted at myself. Walao eh girl. Can you don't so pathetic anot. Little bit thing also want to remember. GET A GRIP CAN.

Okay time to sleep le bah.
GOODNIGHT