Tis a beautiful night

I don't even know why I use that as a title but it doesn't matter. Yes, it doesn't. 

Even though there is an annoyance at home now, I shall be calm and stay contented because as Mark said, anger is a choice. Therefore, I shall choose not to be angry. 

I mean, I learned my lesson about anger after being pissed at Costner for so long. It was so horrible for my heart, all the angst. The moment I chose to let go, it was like whoosh! Instant relief. So thank you Mark for the reminder. 

Tuition today was fun. The primary school exams were over and well obviously, Charles and his little brother were in no mood to do work. Obviously. Come on, which student in the right mind would want to do work when their long awaited end of years are over? Of course it's 'play all the way' mindset. 

In the end, we ended up doing crossword puzzles, boggle and some other word game. The crosswords were fun but honestly, the other two got boring for me after a while. What can I say? I suck at word games too. 

Oh and well, I thought I'd just say thanks to Adam and Ryan again for lending me their extra shirts (Why in the world do they have them) for Stats today. I completely forgot that it was in MLT 12 (some goddamn freezing hell) and was like prepared to freeze my ass off for one hour when two kind souls offered me their spare shirts as well, I don't know. 

Although I must say, I'm still surprised with Ryan's bag because it didn't look big yet it ... had so many things ... 

After taking out the shirt, he dug out his spare pants (for cca I guess) and towel and offered it to whoever might need extra protection against the cold. "You can use the towel as a scarf!" I don't know why, but that was hilarious. 

Well, I can't tell if it's just me or a headache is coming so that's all folks, s'long.

Cheers! 

Monday, ugh

I am so bored right now.

No thanks to me, obviously. My class for today is over and I'm still in school because no one from the east is going back yet.

And me being well, me, decided to wait for them until their going back. Sigh. I am such a genius. Its been only, what, five minutes? I'm already yawning and just zzz.

Even all the food around me isn't attracting me. Way too lazy to even queue up for food. Look at the crowd! It is so bloody crowded. Such a major turn off, ugh.

Okay I'm whining now. Bye!

Sunday Night

Which, by the way, doesn't feel like a Sunday night at all. Why, I barely even feel as if I had a weekend! Today should be a Saturday instead. Why is it not. 

Anyway, I feel so proud of myself today hehehe. I was bored had time today, so I decided to clean up the house! 

It took less than an hour anyway. But I did it more seriously than usual! Like I actually bent over to mop under the chairs properly. How un-lazy of me. Or wait, I think the word is hardworking. Right. Yes. I totally knew that.  Ahem ahem.

Anyway, I feel so sparkly ( not really but I like to be delusional ) clean! The sink is empty, the floor is dust-free, my bed is free of clothes, I fed the dog nice food, my table is messy but clean ( Like, how cool is that ), and the tables! Have been wiped clean! 

I am so proud of my unlaziness hard work.

Ooo, was that a lightning in the sky? I guess I'd better bring a jacket or something to school tomorrow. 

Speaking of which, I should check if there is a MOB CA1 tomorrow... 

Ohmygod. The blackboard says there is! I am so not prepared. 

I mean, come on. Personally, I feel the whole concept of playing Stacko as our CA1 ridiculous. Like, if that pile of cheap plastic topples, it's not just game over but CA1 grades over. Did that make sense? Ah, you get the idea. 

Topple it and you can kiss that A goodbye. 

And fine, the reason I think it's stupid is because I suck at that game. Why else would I avoid that stack of blocks like it's the plague? 

At least judge us on our teamwork based on, I don't know, observations during the game? The whole point is about our behaviour anyway, isn't it! Hell, even playing dominoes would make better sense in my opinion. 

UGH. So not a huge fan of that Stacko. Dominoes are way more fun. 

Well on the bright side, I don't have to lug my computer to school tomorrow! Hooray. 

I guess that's it then, shall turn in for the day. Having this weird headache that came when I was cleaning the house. I'm not even doing something stressful and a headache decides to pop by for a visit. Go figure. 

Oh! One more thing. Good luck for the Mother Tongue A Levels or something tomorrow! Chinese sucks rocks. But y'all do fine, because well, it's such a boring fascinating subject! *Inserts fake cheery voice here*. 

Okay, s'long folks. 

Cheers! 

Hooray, it's Friday!

Well today was good, I felt so comfortable at my mom's place until I didn't want to go home. But well, all good things come to an end!

During break time today, some of my classmates decided to engage in their favorite pastime after eating; camwhoring.

Which was actually kind of fun since everyone was so into it. We somehow ended up going gwiyomi or something but counting to ten instead of six because we deserve more than that.

Okay, that didn't actually make sense. But we took ten photos instead of six, the end.

POA class was actually not bad too, I understood what she was saying! And lets not forget the early  dismissal from stats today. Awesome or what man.

Well I can't remember what I wanted to say so its off with the household chores I ... go? I can't remember anymore either, but who cares, you get what I mean!

Cheers!

Yan Er

People, people, lend me your emails

Which is what I am doing, or was doing, at least. 

Waiting for people to tell me their email address but forget it, I found two out of five of them in my inbox after scrolling for a while and sent it to them so my job is done. Or partially done. 

And thank you, that one person who replied. I appreciate it so. 

I sound so bitchy now. Well, not really, but kind of. 

Right now, I don't really care though. So tired after a cranky start to the day, don't even get me started. 

And is 'sassy' a bad thing? I just remembered. 

It's just a passing (?) comment from my group mate today but well, it bothers. 

I am an introvert. Speaking in front of groups of people, or actually just presenting, used to make me freak out a lot. So uncomfortable. 

Why am I in a business school then, where such things are like, necessary? Sadly, the working world requires this kind of bloody skill of talking in front of large groups about what you researched on, so it's kind of in a way forcing myself to learn? I don't know, my reasoning anyway. 

During presentations so far, who I am in front is in a way kinda different from who I am, I guess. A persona to suit the situation? Maybe. 

But dear god that means that one of my masks is 'sassy'. And I don't even know if it's a good thing or bad! 

Well since it's 11.13pm, I shall not bother about this anymore. Instead, I shall congratulate the SP Squash team for winning gold, yay! Grats you hardcore training guys. 

Lastly, before I sign off, Bryan, I hope your foot/cut/blister/whateverhappenedtoit is better now, don't limp so much because it'll just hurt more.
 Ryan, I think your hand is okay already but ouch that was painful and I hope it's fine now. 
Oh and Greg, MAJOR OUCH on the toenail, get well soon dude. 
Ajay, don't poke the blister even it feels good to (Oh yes I know), it's supposed to help you recover faster.
Adam, you're out of shape. Exercise more man.
Mark, ........ its just an opinion but... carrying a belt in your bag might be useful. Don't scold me for this, it's just a thought. 
I don't remember if anyone else has any injuries or blisters from that impromptu street soccer today but take care y'all! I know most of you won't see this anyway. 

So, goodnight! TGIFTomorrow man. 

Yan Er 

PS. Anonymous um person(?), thanks! I sure hope it does. 

A description

This fault is not mine to bear,

for I am faultless.

This blame is not mine to claim, 

for I am blameless. 

Your actions cause mine,

you are the root of it all.

This fault is not mine, 

but always yours. 


Yeah, pretty much my dad. 

Goddamn it, I want to swim

Goddamn it, I want to swim. 

It's so freaking hot, which is just perfect for soaking in the water, and I have no one to go swimming with. 

And yes, I do need someone to go with because I suck at swimming so that person can come save my ass if something happens or whatever. Not to mention the company, gosh. Swimming alone is so bloody boring. Yes I've tried before and I don't know how people survive swimming alone. 

Loners. 

ARRGH. 

It's so damn boring when even your phone becomes... I don't know, inactive? I check Instagram, and it's just ... oh two pictures, wow okay five seconds of entertainment. 

Then I move on to twitter. Oh look, there's a football match and Steven Gerrad scored his 100th goal or something. Another minute or so of entertainment. 

Next up is tumblr. Which is probably the only nice thing to check in my phone these days, thank goodness for that. 

I mean, it's become so boring that I actually took out my accounting book to redo some questions under Accruals but that just pissed me off after three questions because it's so bloody confusing like ugh just why oh god. 

Okay anyway, I shall go have breakfast of leftover doughnut, yay. 

Cheers! 

I still want to go swimming. 

It's Friday, yay

First of all, today's my cousin's birthday so 

Happy Birthday cousin Cheryl!

I sincerely hope that she had a good day because her mother was being a complete female dog during the whole dinner. Everything about her attitude just read " I don't want to be here." 

Like, hello? I don't know what problems you have but for the sake of your daughter's 21st birthday, couldn't you just try to enjoy? Your daughter for goodness sake! 

But anyway, I shouldn't comment too much. Dinner was fun! Had supper at the airport with the other cousins for a gossip session ahem ahem and headed home, which is where I am now. Like, obviously. 

Since it's a Friday, one might think that I'd be overjoyed to be home now. I thought so too, actually. 

Unfortunately, there's another ... let's say annoyance in my house right now. Thank you, bitch, for ruining my night with that horrible presence of yours, I appreciate it so much. Oh and not to mention my wonderful Father, yes how could I forget, for bringing back stray pups home for entertainment. I just know you have our interests at heart because you care so much for us. 

In case I wasn't clear enough, that was sarcasm, or at least I hope it was. 

I am pissed, but not truely pissed. 

My face is just, like, black right now. I haven't looked at my dad since reaching home and I'm pretty sure it's been around an hour. 

Anyway, since it seems like my friends aren't... online right now, I shall as my cousin if she's playing or not. De-stress people, it's important! (Did I spell that right?) 

Ugh. So much hate. And I'm honestly afraid of the future right now, come to think of it. All the 'What ifs', especially on the living situation, because either option would make me the outsider and life would just suck after that. 

Okay, big talk with dad and well, bye. 

I'm standing on a bridge

Well actually, I'm not. But since having a blog title is nicer, I thought I'd just put what came to mind first and there you have it!

And I just noticed this kinda big and really red cut on my knee, like oh wow how could I not notice that! I'm so observant, really. 

Anyway, thanks Mark for using my blog as entertainment during class I am so honored. 

I'm not sure if I mean to be sarcastic or not. Oh well, at least it kept him from dozing off in class... right...?

Hmmph. I don't think I want to know the answer to that, haha. 

I guess right now until tomorrow evening I'll worry about the whole Sports for Life program thing because I haven't actually decided on what to join yet. Which sucks, because... well, it just sucks! 

Everyone kind of knows what they want to do already and I'm just going "Oh, that sport sucks," or "Oh I hate doing that!" and etc. 

But really, oh my god. Yoga? Like, hell no I'd just be daydreaming the whole time instead on thinking about nothing or something. I mean, yeah, don't knock it till you've tried or whatever but oh come on! Stretching? Ouch much, I can't even touch my toes. And yeah I know this will help me touch my toes but okay let's move on first. Meditating? I'm just going to doubt that, I don't know why. 

The whole inner peace thing would actually help I guess, since life can get pretty screwed up sometimes but........ 

I just have nothing to say about that. 

Option 2; Inline Skating! 

I knocked that door twice. Twice. No one opened man. 

The first time in primary six, I was like terrified of falling down that I just couldn't learn much. But I have a valid reason! Kind of. Sports day was coming! No way was I going to jeopardize my last runner position for the relay. It was my last year! 

Then, you have NYAA in sec 2. Honestly the only thing I remember about that, besides skipping half of it every week for NDOP training ( Flag bearer was so fun oh gosh the retarded kneeling thing ), was this SJAB guy bumping into me and making me almost fall. Not to mention the retarded trainer who kept bitching about us being late and all. Hello, it was the SJABS, not us Guides okay. Sheesh. 

Conclusion; not a good experience from Inline and it's just so ... I don't know, boring? Like, oh put on your wheels and let's roll round and round the square trying not to fall on our butts looking like complete fools! 

Okay, I know it's major bias here but oh man seriously? What is so fun about that! 

Well, I only have my choosiness to thank for this annoying situation now. Maybe I should go take a look at the list of sports they're offering again and think. There's still the fair/carnival/open house/ I-can't-remember-what's-it-called tomorrow after school. 

Ugh what a pain in the ass I am. Damn the fussiness! 

Well, anyway, cheers! 

Yan Er 

It's been a while

I haven't been posting for one reason; laziness.

But anyway, here I am! Posting because.. I don't know why. 

I just thought I'd document the latest incident between my sister and my Grandmother, which ended up with rather favorable results. I'm so unfilial. 

Basically, since I'm too lazy to remember the whole thing and you shouldn't air/dry/you-get-the-idea your dirty laundry outside-kinda-thing, I'll just sum it up to They argued. 

The end

The result? She stopped calling me everyday at 830pm and dripping poison in my ear. Thank goodness. 

I love my sister. I was going crazy listening to her mutter insults everyday. 

Oh well. 

Anyway, I'm getting lazy now. So I shall stop soon! 

As in, stop now.

The gentle wind caresses
and the kind clouds defends us
Taken aback, the sun retreats 
and halts it's relentless heat.

Okay whatever, there's good weather here now! Might as well enjoy it. 

Okay, bye folks.